September 21, 2014

summer 2014.


So grateful for each day I have with this boy.


/ video by Justin

/ the following of Leif Everett here


September 6, 2014

August 17, 2014

three.


Every day I long to hold him.


He should be here.


He should be three.


/ Some photos from his day.





































January 27, 2014

one.


This boy turned one last week. One!!

I’ve been trying to find the words to describe what it’s been like raising him and watching him grow this past year. Words to describe everything he means to me.

But words, words don’t even come close.

I’m beyond grateful that I get to hold him every day. That I get to watch him grow up. That I get to be his mom.

And that’s about all I can type for now without bursting into tears.


/ Photos from his birthday

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August 13, 2013

two.


We do meaningful things

and visit a meaningful spot.

It is his day.

A day for rituals

and reflection.

I think about what Liam's life means to us

and all the ways he's changed me.

I remember why we are right here right now

and the little boy who is not.


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In Toronto, candles are lit

and two balloons hang next to his picture frame.

Photos of Liam are posted on his aunt's Facebook wall

and messages of remembrance are exchanged.

Justin shows me each one

and my tender heart swells.

He is remembered and missed and loved.


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Liam is gone

but he is very much a part of each and every day.

He is a part of us.

His story is weaved into his brother's,

into mine.

I carry one of my sons in my arms

and the other one in my heart.


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August 6 is the anniversary of our first son's birth.

Liam would be two years old now.

I miss him so much.

I love him so much.


/ Some photos from his day.

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July 3, 2013

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"When I walk, I walk with you. Where I go, you're with me always." - Alice Hoffman



/ Mount Mansfield, Vermont

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June 18, 2013

5 months.


Today my love.

You are 5 months old.


Incredible.


/ Photos by your papa

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